This is an exerpt from a diary that one of the main characters in the book keeps. She is a person who began our relationship as a stalker. I was the person she was stalking. She, for purposes unknown will calledl herself Judith K.
Andre S. Lange--recall the book is set in Amsterdam, NL, in mainly winter of 2007.
Judith K.'s Diary
I don't know why I am like, covertly surveying him....why don't I just use my "actress-appeal?" /name-recognition and blow his mind and just make him 'go after me?'
He sees me, acknowledges it and yet, does not come running after me.....has not asked me for my autograph nor has he given me any of that (adorable) 'fan-behaviour.".......why? WTF? HISS!
I think it must be true what many in the industry have told me, he's been around a lot of movie-type and music-industry-type people in his life, and is just not that impressed....he seems to want to "get to know the person" before he even decides he likes her or not....strange--so unusual. I, feel like Mary magdolen, "I don't know how to harm him..."
My friend Natalie, who works at a few escort agencies in Amsterdam, saw him yesterday at Kinko's on Overtoom. He was, like checking email and stuff from back home (she walked behind his screen several times while there)--but he printed out a few pictures--all of women, one of me! I wonder if he's going to put it up in his hotel room or use it for "other purposes." I ought to "introduce myself" straightforwardly to him......but not in any way he could possibly expect, or be ready for. Hmmm.....maybe natalie could get me, a fake "temporary job" as an escort for one of those agencies....one he likes...i could be the "red-head" who shows up at his door, yeah, at 3 am......nice. I am thinking definitely a labial piercing. I hear he does nice work.
Judith
